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Sorry For My Absence!

Hello all, I’m back. For a short time at least. 

I’m heading back to school in a couple days so I’ve been quite busy as of late. 

So as you know from my last post, I was having some emotional issues so I needed to take a break from writing. Once I got better from that, I got really busy trying to hang out with people before I go back to scho. I’ve also been getting things packed and ready for when I go back. 

Since I’ll be in school soon my posts will be less frequent due to homework, my two jobs, spending time with friends, and taking care of myself (emotionally, mentally, physically etc). So I’ll write when I can. The most I can promise is maybe one post a week. I may post more if I have time. 

I hope you all understand, and thanks for your patience. Thanks for reading my blog. I’m really thankful, and I genuinely hope you all enjoy it. 

Keep checking for later posts. In the meantime keep entertained with my previous posts! Thank you all again. 

Till next time guys! 

PS: I have some post ready that’ll post in a few days. 😊

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This Week Has Been Shit

Hi everyone. 

Once again I’m really sorry for my inactivity. This week has just been….bad. 

These past few days I’ve been dealing with some bad thoughts and mild depression. These last few days I’ve been sad and irritable. These past two days I haven’t been getting along with my mom. I’m starting to lost interest in things I like. I’m barely making it through Supernatural because I’m unfocused and tired. I have no desire to play games on my computer. I don’t want to look at my books or even write. 

I’m not sure what’s going on with me, but I’m not having a good week. I’m already dreading tomorrow, and I don’t want to leave my bed. Today I had a desperate desire to just crawl in bed and never leave my room. I’m tempted to isolate myself and not talk to anyone, but at the same time I don’t want to be alone. Ugh. 

So because of this I won’t be writing for a bit. I’m not sure how long, but for now I don’t have the energy. I hope you all understand. 

On the flip side, I hope you guys are having a good week. It’s almost the weekend (yay!). Till next time guys…


A Simple Coffee Date

Today I went on a date with a classmate from high school. And must say:

It was very pleasant.

It had been awhile since I went on a date.  I guess it was my first real date honestly. With my ex, it was kinda difficult to spend time together.

Today it was pleasant because we had a lot in common and talked endlessly for hours. We both had a dirty chai which is chai tea with two shots of expresso. It was actually pretty good.

I dressed to my finest today, and I was so comfortable talking with him. I was pleasantly surprised, and realized that’s what a date is supposed to be. You’re supposed to be comfortable with someone, have a conversation and get to know each other. It’s supposed to be nice.

I think this guy is pretty cute, and I kinda hope it builds into something. If it doesn’t that’s ok. At least I learned something from this experience. Dates are supposed to be fun, not cumbersome.

Sorry I haven’t posted in awhile guys….I’ve been busy lately, and things may get a little busier as it gets closer to school, but I’ll try to post often still. I hope you all enjoyed this post and I hope you all have a happy and safe 4th of July! Till next time guys…


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It’s Better To Be Dissapointed Now Than Disappointed Later

This is something I live by. And it’s the worst thing to live by.

I’m begging you guys, don’t live by this. I’m struggling myself to get past this, it’s such unhealthy thinking.

I think this way because I don’t want to set myself up. That way, if something goes wrong, I won’t be let down so bad. A good way to think about it is knowing I’ll fall on my face. If I anticipate falling on my face, I can at least either try to brace myself, or know the pain is coming. I do this with everything. Mainly with school, but also with relationships.

I always think the worst before the best. It’s not the best habit, but it’s saved me in the past. There’s been so many times I was so relived when things went right. It’s a wonderful feeling, but I put myself through so much hell beforehand, I’m mentally spent afterwards.

I think I’ve always done this, but it intensified after my ex broke up with me. The way I found out was devastating, my best friend told me. My ex and I where fighting a lot, but I wanted to figure it out and stick through it. I found out later that he didn’t, despite the fact that he told me otherwise.

I’m not saying that this is completely as a result of this breakup. It happened years ago, I’m over it, and I chose to think this way, but the breakup didn’t really help. It’s a way to defend myself kinda.

This way of thinking sucks though. It doesn’t let me get excited about things, or just live my life in peace. It’s just one of those things, that I’m working on. Self-love is important guys, and we could use some more of it.

I hope you all enjoyed this post, and thanks for reading! Till next time…

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What Harry Potter Means to Me

So I know this is a day late, but I don’t care. As a Potterhead, I feel like this is important in honor of the 20th anniversary of The Sorcerer’s Stone.

I was scrolling through my Instagram today, and one of my favorite people posted a beautiful Harry Potter picture, and asked us: “What does Harry Potter mean to you?” I quickly answered my fingers flying across my keyboard. Of course in the comments I only posted one thing. But here I will post more of what Harry Potter means to me (also the person I follow is called xenatine, you should really go check her out. And no this isn’t a sponsor from her, I’m just a fan.)

1. Friendship

To be Harry Potter means friendship. The bond between Harry, Ron and Herminone was so strong, it showed me what true friendship was. It showed me, that no matter what, and no matter what happens, you’re always supposed to be there for your friends. It also showed the importance of just having friends in general. I fully realized this when I dealt with depression and other scary life changes like going to college and such. Without my friends, I’m not sure where I would be today.

2. Stability

This one may seem strange, but as far as I can remember, Harry Potter was the first series that I read. I remember the night I got my first three books. I was in Evansville with my family, and my grandmother called me over. Once I walked over, she gave me the first three books in the series. I was so happy. She knew I loved Harry Potter. At the time, I watched the first movie over a thousand times. Over the course of years ( I read other books too) I read the series, and it just provided a sense of stability for me. Harry Potter and the characters and the world itself was just a normal occurrence in my life. They were just always there (I’m not quite sure how to explain it….)

3.A Way to Escape

I can’t count how many times I read Harry Potter when I was upset or stressed  about something. It was a way for me to leave this world and slip into another one. When I read, it felt like I was there with them, solving magical mysteries and such. It was an amazing experience.

So these are the things I’ve taken away from Harry Potter over the years. There many be more, but I made the mistake of doing this in the middle of the night, so I’m tired. I love Harry Potter and my life would be dull without it. I hope you all enjoyed my post, and thanks for reading!

Till next time!